Thursday, May 27, 2010

Interview Done

So I had my interview at Birthwise midwifery school yesterday. I was really Nervous, but I think it went pretty well. I've been told that one of the best things you can do in a midwifery school interview is be passionate- If that's true, then I rocked it.

as I've said before, becoming a Midwife is what I was truly born to do. as a believer in positive thinking, I know that I've already gotten in- This is what I was meant to do with my life... there are going to be a few obstacles before I can get from point A (Here, not knowing if I got in officially) to Point B, driving myself, in my own vehicle, an hour and a half from home to Bridgton three days a week... but God/dess will provide me the tools to do this, and I will do this.

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Adventures on Babble

for my upcoming interview, I decided to do a little research about how mothers feel about their births. the striking differences were amazing to me.
I want to be clear, for the majority of this blog, that I am becoming a midwife, not so that I can judge other women for their births, but so that I can help in providing women with a choice- the choice to give birth how they want to- and truly natural births just don't happen anymore.
one of the defining moments in my journey to this place was hearing horror story after horror story from the mothers in my life about their birth experiences.
My mother pushed with me (just pushed) for 6 hours before I went into fetal distress and was delivered by Emergency C-Section. my younger brothers were also delivered by C-section. as it turned out, my mother had a tilted pelvis which prevents her from delivering a baby over 5 lbs.
my cousin Kristen, a juvenile Diabetic, had a doctor FORCE her into an epidural (telling her she couldn't safely deliver her son via C-section under general)... but first tried to convince her husband to gang up on her with him, because she "had" to consent to the epidural first.
My best friend, Heather, threatened to barricade herself in her hospital room after a nurse came to give her pitocin without her consent- she delivered a healthy 6lb boy just an hour later, without any form of intervention, going from 3-10 centimeters in 30 minutes.

women have a choice to abort their baby, and they should have a choice to deliver their children in any safe way possible... my Mother should have had a scheduled C-section in advanced. Kristen should have been put under. Heather should have been left the hell alone.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Becoming a Midwife

I have had dreams of becoming a midwife for two years now. I began this journey, however, much earlier than that. I am a functional middle child, despite being the eldest child of either parent, because of the close relationship I've had since birth with my first cousins, my mother's nieces and nephews.
I have always had what you might call a 'jeopardy head', knowing lots of useless facts about a lot of random things... as I entered high school, this knowledge started grouping into two more distinct (and radically different) areas. Heavy Metal music, and pregnancy & childbirth. often, I could out do friends with facts about this drummer or that guitarist, while simultaneously out-'facting' the high school Sex ed teacher.
Two years ago, at 18, I saw 'The Business of Being Born'. something in me just clicked. That was what I was supposed to do with my life. At the time, I wasn't in a place where it was possible for me to enroll in the regional midwifery school, but the thought lingered. I thought about other things; teaching elementary school & social work... both careers where a natural caregiver such as myself might eventually be maxed out...
During my second semester of college, (just this passed spring semester) I found myself surrounded by pregnant women... and women in general as I took a Women's Studies course. I felt vital, empowered and perhaps most importantly, satisfied, discussing women's issues, in particular, reproductive health in the United States. I made my decision to apply to birthwise.

It's now been 2.5 months since I first made the decision to apply, and my interview is a week from tomorrow. I am a believer in the power of positive thinking, so I know I'm getting in. I don't have a back-up plan, and I can't imagine the universe conspiring against something I am so passionate about, something I know I was born to do.

so who am I?
My name is Bexxy and I am a 20 year old college student from rural Maine. I have a pierced lip & nose (I wear hoops in both), and an undershave haircut. I listen to a lot of heavier music, in particular Atreyu, Avenged Sevenfold, Combichrist, Metallica (also my cat's name) and Guns N' Roses. I wear band tee-shirts and flair jeans. I look bald when I pull my hair back in a ponytail. My favorite food is Lean Cuisine's Asian Potstickers, and I love me some Grey's Anatomy.